am disgustingly happy today.drove people up the wall with "incredible sunniness".
now i'm scared of being blue again

Mrs. Hobson's Choice

What shall a woman
Do with her ego
Faced with the choice
That it go or he go?

-Alma Denny

another one of those poems......(refer to previous post)

isnt it sad when people you 've almost heroworshipped turn out to be real?
and... well .....human?

damn i hate growing up!!

i was re-reading a book today...couldnt finish re-reading since friend took it away(her logic :since i had already read the book i could wait ...which might seem reasonable to a lot of people ,but its not actually. not if you are me)
i have a very disgusting reading habit...i read books very very fast and at a stretch ....consequently i can remember very little of what i read in the book.
if however i like the book i do go back to it ...which is when the fun part begins!!it is then that i have the time to go "hee heee' or stop to think (or actually say it out loud).."awwww how cute"...
like when i read harry potter ....the weasley twins barely made any impression on me when i first read it ....now ,well i think they are the cutest of the lot.(yup !a friend would luuuurrv to date one of the weasley twins)
only when i'm re-reading the book am i in not in a tearing hurry to finish it.I actually have the time to stop, stare out of the window and wonder what i'd do differently if were in the character's shoes .....that reminds me..
ever noticed how the girl/guy always ends up with the wrong guy/girl....at least initially ?...well thats something i sooooo wouldnt do ....i mean, if i were scarlett or dominiqe or allanna or lata or maya .....or
oh well, since i'm not!!

SSSSS

peoples ares so weirrds

Signs of dementia

1.suspecting that a very close friend secretly hates you...just because she didnt return your call in 2-3 days .

2.suspecting harmless schoolkids of stalking you just because they seem to take the same bus as you.

3.breaking into tears in the middle of a public transport ...without any reason

4.having EXTREME moodswings within a span of two minutes..(this when yo're NOT PMSing)

5.talking about your insanity in a blog ...where half the world can read it and laugh (this when you have katagelophobia!)

Surreal

the phoolwalli has left this huge stack of sugarcane sticks at the entrance to my house.
and for some unknown reason the entire house smells like cakes!
feel like i'm a part of some bizzarre "magic realism"-ish book.
feel like i'm going to turn into a butterfly and fly out of window next!


ps:and yes i badly want to colour /paint something .and for some reason(i wonder why?)i cant find my colouring book or crayons or sketch pens....thus the above post!!

Insomnia

There are worse things than having behaved foolishly in public.
There are worse things than these miniature betrayals,
Committed or endured or suspected;there are worse things
Than not being able to sleep for thinking about them.
It is five AM.All the worse things come stalking in
and stand icily about the bed looking worse and worse
and worse.

Fleur Adcock

i want to crawl into a dark dark hole and hide ......preferably for the next century .
like always another writer has said what i wanted to ,before me!honestly ,sometimes i wonder if these people travel "forward" in time ,get inside my head and then steal my ideas!

i'm either surrounded by geniuses
OR
or have an IQ of a TOMATO.

days and days and days of letting things go unsaid.
sigh.......

Wishlist for afterlife

in my next life i will be...

1)witty funny and articulate

2)less psychotic (maybe more neurotic........i like neurosis!)

3)not BIPOLAR

4)less prone to inane crushes on people who are unaware of my existence

5)THINNER and taller (actually dont even want the latter .....just being thinner with a superfast metabolic rate would suffice)

6)better at quandtitative aptitude

7)capable of writing poetry that does not, sound ,read or in any way resemble shit


or so i wish...........

Thank You

how 'bout getting off thase antibiotics
how 'bout stopping eating when i'm full up
how 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
how 'bout that elusive kudo


thank you India
thank you terror,
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how 'bout me not blamin you for everything
how 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
how 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how 'bout grieving it all one at a time


thank you India
thank you terror.......

the moment i let go of it was
the moment that i got more than i coluld handle
the moment i jumped off of it was
the moment that i touched down

how 'bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how 'bout not equating death with stopping

thank you India
thank you Providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you Silence


Alanis Morisstette

song's been playing inside my head throughout the day .love alanis .love the song

why do i read blogs that i cannot comment on?(besides the fact that ,they can at times, be mildly entertaining)
read three blogs ...did not leave any comments ,coz i couldnt think of anything to say !!!......although i was pretty sure i had something to say.i just dont know what though!

female bonding rocks!
culinary endeavours have not only been successful, but have also been wildly appreciated.

would it kill me to actually want or aim for something thats attainable ?

culinary endeavoures have been immensely successful !!!!!

considering opening a "chocolaterie'.sigh!
if only i were juliet binoche .or had a johnny depp lookalike in mah city!!

if only wishes were horses.......

wouldja really like to know?


guess????

what kind of a loser thinks of sarcastic comebacks ,to comments that havent been vocalized and probably wont be any time in the near future ,given,that conversation with,the "commentee'has boiled down to zero...???

horrors!!
parents have taken to sniffing at my hair these days .the objective?to determine if i smoked in college or not.

my options ?risk alopecia /permanent baldness OR being grounded for life!

uhm......conspiracies make me feel good